http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/ Whispers Tue, 19 Apr 2005 19:22:39 PDT http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2005. Support Support http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/11.html Wed, 20 Apr 2005 03:17:56 GMT I am blogging on this site for the last time. I have finally broke down and decided to pay for a blog. Please visit my new site, see you there http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=11 http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/10.html Sun, 03 Apr 2005 04:23:31 GMT What does Cancer do to friendships??? Having had Cancer, I can say that in my experience I felt it gave me a clear idea of who in my life is a friend and who is not. Who was there for me at my darkest hour and who ran for the hills. Who made effort to check in with me to make sure I was doing ok, to see if I needed anything, and to see if I was hmmm....alive. Most of my friends really went above and beyond with the phone calls, the visits, the prayers, etc. I have to say unfortunately there were some friends that I had that didn't really demonstrate any care or concern didn't make any... (more) http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=10 http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/9.html Mon, 21 Mar 2005 21:09:40 GMT A little promotion to a worthy cause. This April 30th in NYC, I am leading a team in the Revlon Run Walk for Women's Cancers. Please feel free to check out my teams site and make a donation if possible. Go to www.revlonrunwalk.com Go to teams Type in "All About N.E.D." (don't forget the periods between the letters!) Last year a group of my friends got together and created a team in my name, the "we love Jen" team. And we got about 30 people together to walk, and raised over $4000. It was an amazing and overwhelming experience. Flashback to May 1st 2004, I was in the... (more) http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=9 http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/8.html Fri, 18 Mar 2005 00:37:01 GMT I got a call the other night from my soon to be mother in law, that my fiancé’s grandma had at sonogram and it showed a large complex cyst on one of her ovaries. OYE VEY!!!! I think time stopped in that moment. I was stuck in some parallel universe of past and present. Flashing back instantly to the first time hearing that term from my gynecologist. I thought, the word complex can't be good. I mean we all want our organs, body parts, cysts to be simple right??? After a few minutes of being stuck, I snapped out of myself and immediately called her. I felt this strong urge to talk to... (more) http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=8 http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/7.html Tue, 08 Mar 2005 15:03:55 GMT The phone rang....my heart races and then stops and the nurse on the phone looks through the fax for my blood work results. It feels like an eternity for her to say one number.... "Your CA - 125 is less than five" says the nurse. "less than five????" I repeat back to make sure I got that right. "Yes." WHEW, my whole body just goes limp. My heart starts racing, as if it realizes that it had stopped for few moments and now needs to catch up. I just stare into space trying to take it all in and remind myself to appreciate this positive news and remember how this feels to... (more) http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=7 http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/5.html Wed, 02 Mar 2005 16:53:56 GMT Waiting for your test results back from your doctor has to be one of the most challenging things when dealing with Cancer. You have CT Scans, blood work, MRI's, etc. done and it takes about on average 3-5 buisness days to get the results back. So after day 2, you get this deep pit in the bottom of your stomach, you can't sleep, you can't eat (except sugar and caffeine). By day 3, you become a ball of nerves unable to concentrate, unable to be in the present because your mind is out there playing the "what if" game. Day 4, well the only time that I ever knew what it felt like to... (more) http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=5 http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/4.html Mon, 28 Feb 2005 20:57:36 GMT Sometimes I feel like nobody can hear me. I tell people, (not many people - only the select few that I trust with my feelings) that I am scared about getting my blood work results back. I am scared that my counts will rise even the slightest, possibly indicating a recurrence. They're response is often "the results will be fine" or "you are worrying / getting yourself crazy for nothing" or "you have to think positively." Don't you hear me? I am telling you I am scared, can't you just let me be scared instead of trying to talk me out of it. I just want them to say "UM YEAH, you have a... (more) http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=4 http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/3.html Fri, 25 Feb 2005 22:25:54 GMT One of the biggest problems with being diagnosed with Cancer, is distiguishing between problematic symptoms and normal everyday bodily functions. Not a day goes by, when I don't feel my stomach and think to myself "am I more bloated today?" Or I have a twinge in my side and I think "What was that??? Could it be the Cancer spreading?" It is constant and it is annoying. I would love to go back in time and not be so overly concerned about my body. But I tell myself, that I have to pay close attention because can't let any sort of signal or whisper go unnoticed or unheard. I am now... (more) http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=3 http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/2.html Fri, 18 Feb 2005 01:29:06 GMT I have to say, since day one of being diagnosed with cancer people go out of their way to tell me how great I look. One of the first things out of peoples mouths when they see me is a compliment on my appearance. You would think I would find it flattering, but I find it to be rather annoying. When I was first diagnosed I got "you look so great, I can't believe you have cancer." Then when my hair fell out I heard "you are so pretty, even without hair, you know not many people can pull that off." OR "you don't even look sick, you look so healthy and alive." Now that I am... (more) http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=2 http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/archive/1.html Tue, 15 Feb 2005 01:57:45 GMT It is said that Ovarian Cancer WHISPERS, known as a "Silent killer." The reason behind all of this quiet is because the symptoms of this cancer are vague and can be justified as other common female ailments. The common hints that this cancer can be lurking about are: bloating, irregular periods, break through bleeding, constipation (changes in bowel habits), cramping, and lower back pain. Unfortunately, often this disease will remain unnoticed because women aren't listening to their bodies and hearing these whispers that something is terribly wrong. It was in mid-August 2003 when I... (more) http://silentwhispers.blogdrive.com/comments?id=1