The phone rang....my heart races and then stops and the nurse on the phone looks through the fax for my blood work results.  It feels like an eternity for her to say one number....

"Your CA - 125 is less than five" says the nurse.

"less than five????" I repeat back to make sure I got that right.

"Yes."

WHEW, my whole body just goes limp. My heart starts racing, as if it realizes that it had stopped for  few moments and now needs to catch up.  I just stare into space trying to take it all in and remind myself to appreciate this positive news and remember how this feels to exhale and just relax for a moment.