One of the biggest problems with being diagnosed with Cancer, is distiguishing between problematic symptoms and normal everyday bodily functions. Not a day goes by, when I don't feel my stomach and think to myself "am I more bloated today?" Or I have a twinge in my side and I think "What was that??? Could it be the Cancer spreading?" It is constant and it is annoying. I would love to go back in time and not be so overly concerned about my body. But I tell myself, that I have to pay close attention because can't let any sort of signal or whisper go unnoticed or unheard.
I am now constantly listening, especially on a day like today when tomorrow I will be going for routine bloodwork that can confirm my biggest fear, the fear of reoccurrence that I live with everyday.